E was born 6 months ago today. I cannot believe how old my baby is. I cannot believe that I’ve been a mom for half a year! a Then I could not imagine the sheer amount of love I would feel for my tiny little nuggie. It seems like yesterday I brought her home and blinked and all this time has flown by. She is my world and while I can still remember the days before she arrived, I don’t really miss them anymore. (except the sleep oh glorious sleep).My laboring process was terribly long, it lasted days. Literally 30 hours. After all the time spent growing and nurturing her, it was time and there she was. In the end I was handed this little creature and just started bawling my eyes out. I didn’t know how emotion I would be when I saw her, and what a surge of joy I would feel in that moment transitioning into motherhood. We had created this little miracle I carried her around for 9 months and here she was! Finally!
Since then it’s been E all day everyday. Her sleeps, cries, and poops has become my life. I haven’t left her side for more than 3 hours (a lady has to get her hair did) at a time. I honestly don’t want to. She has grown so much becoming a real self sufficient baby, almost tripled her weight and so independent. She no longer needs me as much, she can wriggle her way around (almost crawling up on all fours!) roll over like a champ, sleeps in her crib in her OWN room, and she’s eating big girl food it is really crazy. It makes me sad that she’s growing up so fast, but at the same time I’m excited for what’s to come. I honestly can’t even describe the happiness that wells up when she smiles at me with her big gummy grin, or when she raises her little hands for mommy to pick her up. She really is the love of my life. I live for her now, and she is my everything.